The Lord my God says to me,"In repentance and rest is your salvation. In quietness and trust is your strength." The Lord longs to be gracious unto me, He rises to show me compassion. For the Lord is a just God. How gracious he will be when you cry for help. As soon as He hears He will answer you. Whether you turn to the right or to the left your ears will hear a voice behind you saying "This is the way walk ye in it" "Be careful to obey, success is not guaranteed unconditionally."Be strong and courageous" "Be strong and courageous" "Be strong and courageous", our Father says this over and over in His word to us. Thank you Father for your love and continued encouragement.

TEA

THOUGHTS
EMOTION
ACTION
New way to look at tea. These thoughts are lies from satan, I cant, I wont, Im not.
When I believe them my emotions are fear, sad and lonely.
Then my action is do nothing, sit on the couch, watch tv,
and stuff my face till It hurts.

When I turn those thoughts(fiery darts from satan) to scripture, "I CAN do all things thru Christ who strengthens me."
Then my emotion is thankful, happy, secure.
As a result my action becomes productive. I will call friends, go on outings and enjoy life.
In other words GET UP OFF THAT COUCH, TURN THE TV OFF.
God is so good to me. I am thankful for the people He has put in my life to light a fire under me.

God is good.

We serve an amazing God. He loves us so much and shows us in so many different ways. Thank you Tiz for your blessing this morning. Thank you God for helping me and encouraging me today. You are my strength, my hope and my song. No matter how undeserving I am you always reach out to me. Thank you.

I am ok so far today I am hanging on to the Word. This battle is spiritual. Please pray.

2 days

Seems like I can go 2 days not stuffing myself to sickness. I am not as desperate as I was last week. I am more encouraged. I have told some people in my life that I am sick. They looked at me funny and that was that. I know that God loves me and wants the best for me. Sometimes the pressures of life are just too much. Its hard when you believe no body really cares. My "mom" died last January and she was the only person who loved me for me. Now I have no one. Its really hard to make friends when you dont feel like you are worth anything. When everyone you know and love doesnt have belief and confidence in you its hard to have any. I know in my head but my heart is breaking.

Hope.

My friend Jaci sent me a book "Thin Enough", thank you friend.
My hope is there again. I am beginning to hope.
I am not crying as much. I am sad, I feel all alone.
This episode is almost gone. I hope it never shows its face again.
I know God has a plan for me. I just hope He will let me in on it soon.
I am not much of a writer or talker for that matter.
I spent most of my life being quieted and pushed away.
I do know and always have known(if only in my mind) that God doesnt quiet me or push me away. Now if I can just realize that His opinion is the only one that matters.