Am I the only one with regrets?

I went to a celebration of life for my friend Debbie yesterday. Quite a few months ago my friend called me and invited me into the last months of her life. I went over, had an amazing visit and left with every intention of going back to spend lots more time with her. But life got in the way. Every day I found every excuse there is not to go back and spend time with my friend. I was too tired, I should see my kids, my grand kids but mostly I was too tired. I could have shared some amazing memories with my friend but I was selfish. I know Debbie has forgiven me. She is with our Lord
and Savior Jesus Christ, the son of the living God. Just one more regret in my life. One more thing to forgive myself for. One more thing to live with. I have still been stuffing food into my mouth. I cant seem to stop. I am so sick. I want to be positive. It just seems like every positive is knocked down by all the negatives. I know I need counseling I hope I make a decision to get it soon.

Hope I can make it thru the night.

With you thinking of me I can get thru tonight.
Thank you for the strength you give to me.

Someone Listened

Thank you for responding.
It gave me a jolt and helped me to have a good day today.
This is a moment by moment renewing of my mind walk.
Sometimes I feel so sad and alone.
I know I am not alone, God is always with me.
I am looking for a full time job.
This is a strange feeling.
I have been self employed for 14 years.
My husband and I have worked together all those years.
It is time to work somewhere else.
It definitely will be strange working for someone else but I believe there is a place for me that I will enjoy and do some good.
So as Sarah Young says in her book, Instead of seeking perfection in this fallen world, I will pour my energy into seeking God.

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I guess I am still on my own. Another night and I have made myself sick and yet I still want to shove more food into my mouth. I am sick to my stomach, I feel like I am going to throw up. I just dont know what to do. Help me please.

Do you eat even if it makes you sick?

Here it is 2 years later and I am still in the same place. Stuck. I eat beyond full. I eat until I am in pain.(physical and mental) I cant seem to stop myself. Do you have any suggestions? This pattern has developed in the last 10 years. To the point, it seems, of No return. I dont have much interest in anything anymore. I am at last seeking input from whoever will respond.