I went to a celebration of life for my friend Debbie yesterday. Quite a few months ago my friend called me and invited me into the last months of her life. I went over, had an amazing visit and left with every intention of going back to spend lots more time with her. But life got in the way. Every day I found every excuse there is not to go back and spend time with my friend. I was too tired, I should see my kids, my grand kids but mostly I was too tired. I could have shared some amazing memories with my friend but I was selfish. I know Debbie has forgiven me. She is with our Lord
and Savior Jesus Christ, the son of the living God. Just one more regret in my life. One more thing to forgive myself for. One more thing to live with. I have still been stuffing food into my mouth. I cant seem to stop. I am so sick. I want to be positive. It just seems like every positive is knocked down by all the negatives. I know I need counseling I hope I make a decision to get it soon.
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That one visit must have made her so much happier.
ReplyDeleteI had a longer response about regrets. About being the weak vessel. Truth is, I really don't have the answers and I am not a good friend. I don't call people and I rarely go visit people. So, yeah. You are not alone in this world of regrets. My biggest regret is that I am not a better friend.
{{{HUGS}}}
Jaci